Can one break being clumsy?

Three weeks until my birthday and today's subject is my many, many mistakes.

It could almost be funny, but it is sad how many mistakes I make.

Yesterday, I was driving home in the hot weather of Escondido, and I realized that I would need gas soon. So rather than put it off for later, I handed over the green and pumped gas, pushing down fiercely on the handle. After I completed that, I decided the windows were dusty and badly begged for cleaning.

I cleaned the back window first. I put up the windshield wiper up and I began to clean the window, wiping in a horizontal fashion. Then, my arm bumped the wiper- crack! It had broken off. I looked around in desperation- I couldn't find anyone to help. So, ol' me tries to do it herself.

And again, I, while trying to re-attack the wiper, snap off the little hook on the wiper. I was upset, but then I've become accustom to these mistakes in a way.

At times I wish I didn't make so many mistakes. What if I did things exactly right? I think, "Oh it would be great!" I especially would like it even more if my brain could process things quickly, therefore resulting in myself being a much bigger help to my parents.

I can't be something I'm not.. I can try to be more careful and use my head but I can't change the "clumsy" girl I've been... and still am!

One time, when I had just started to learn how to drive, I knocked off the mirror on the side of the car bumping into a trashcan.One week ago I was over at my grandma's house preparing myself Greek yogurt. I had found the walnuts to put on the top and then I sought honey. I found an old glass jar of honey and just as I reach up to put it away it slipped from my hand, crashing down on the floor. The glass was everywhere and most people supposed it was me. Who else?

It makes me wonder... how long will this follow me? I can only hope I will become "less" of a clumsy girl.

Trusting in God,
E. Nickleby